ticktock to 20.

i am going to 20 on this coming November.
now i realized ,
i am getting older.
there's a lot of things i had faced.
and there's a lot of things i am going to face.
Insyaallah.

i used to think

i had the answers to everything,

but now i know

life doesn't always go my way, yeah..

feels like i'm caught in the middle

that's when i realize...

i'm not a girl,

not yet a woman.

all i need is time,

a moment that is mine,

while i'm in between.

i'm not a girl,

there is no need to protect me.

it's time that i

learn to face up to this on my own.

i've seen so much more then you know now,

so don't tell me to shut my eyes.

i'm not a girl, 

but if you look at me closely,

you will see it in my eyes.

this girl will always find

her way.

i'm not a girl

(i'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe).

not yet a woman

(i'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah).

all i need is time (all i need),

a moment that is mine (that is mine),

while i'm in between.

i'm not a girl,

not yet a woman.

by, 

Britney Spears

selingan ;

tak sangka dah lama rupanya tak jumpa dia. 

the first guy i used to know. 

the only guy that used to be in deep down of my heart,
for years.

no one knows.

what i feel towards him.

hate. love. everything. complete.

hope he is the one for me.

only He knows.